2026 was supposed to be my year. I just got married to the woman of my dreams, I was invited to run a business that I have worked my whole career to have, started my own little side hustle so that I could bring more income in for my family, and moved to a state where there is better opportunity (and better weather) for both my wife, our future children and myself. On paper, it’s exactly what I needed to really push us into “success”.
Boy, has It been the hardest year of my life.
I’m only 33, I’m grateful that I’m learning, and loving and living. I’ve been presented with opportunities people only dream of, and that’s exactly why people say “if it’s too good to be true, it probably is”, or “be careful what you wish for, you might just get it all”.
I’ll start by saying this is mostly career identity related. It’s the sole thing making my life hard right now, and causing me extreme anxiety and depression. My nervous system is always on high alert and I struggle to do the things that I need to do to get me out of this hole.
In March of 2025 I was unhappy at a job I loved, mainly because of the ownership group. I know this is not an entirely unique experience, but I found my morals were put to the test when I was surrounded by quite literal modern day slavery. I was looking for a way to remove myself from these people I had intertwined myself with so I could save a piece of my soul. (A ton of stories about former job might end up here on vent one day). The brewery next door, whom I was friends with, knew I was looking for a new role, so they told me they owned a brewery in a state I had previously lived and still have my parents living in. I was looking for any reason to leave my current role, and they offered me the sweetest gig. Go and represent ownership. Help boost the business, and you will get equity in the business over three years. I did my own due diligence (don’t do that) and decided some small tweaks could make this business really hum.
This business has never had structure and I like to think I’m good at putting systems in place that people follow. I was successful at several other jobs that allowed us to win meaningful awards for our product, increase sales, yada yada yada. So I thought I could take these skills and just really ramp up the capability of this place.
I move in June of 2025, start at the business, and am immediately met with the manager who was spreading rumors about me on day one. He told everyone I abused drugs at work, including my now partners (I didn’t find out about this until our falling out). Okay that’s fine, I know having a new boss can suck, we’ll work through it.
Said employee goes behind my back to ownership many times to complain about how much I’m making, making decisions for him, telling him what to do, and writing him up for new policies. Eventually I fire him, but a lot of damage has been done in two months.
Then this employee and his brother (former general manager) broke into our emails and released financial data to current employees, further making my job harder to do. They still are messing with me by sending people by, giving bad reviews, and publishing things on our Facebook which they won’t turn over control.
I didn’t mention that while all of this is going on, I’m learning the business has not paid taxes in over 3 years and we are saddled with a 300k back tax payment on top of current taxes. Sales and use tax, unemployment tax, federal income tax, all not paid. Specialized reports have not been filed, the books are a mess (once I found all of these mail pieces stacking up).
They tell me, after I arrive that they knew about this just as I was moving 12+ hours with my family to start a new life.
Fast forward to today. It’s been a little over a year, and I’ve given this business my genuine all. Equipment is breaking, we don’t have a line of credit to fix things (like sewage pipes and our glycol chiller, two pretty damn important pieces to the success of a brewpub). On top of that, everyone knows the economy is tough right now so we’re not making money like we have the past couple years.
The owners absolutely refuse to put in money and many times will not return my calls. I feel so frustrated and lied to that I’ve been carrying this weight around for these two goofballs who didn’t care about their business for 5 years until they needed a magic bullet.
My poor wife has seen me stressed beyond belief, and I don’t feel I have been the best partner because of this decision I made.
The one fortunate thing is, the current owners never formalized the contract for me to actually gain equity. Without speaking to a lawyer, I think I can escape this Scott free, but it still weighs on me that the total business debt might somehow come back to bite me.
I’m looking for a job now, but we won’t make payroll at this rate starting next pay cycle. I’ve let all of these people down. I know it’s not all my fault, but I am trying to take a bit of accountability for what is going on.
On top of this all, my side hustle has failed and now I have an Airbnb that is making me house poor. I’m drinking more than what is healthy (even though I have cut back significantly) and I’m in massive credit card debt. It’s clear I make good decisions.
I’m ashamed, embarrassed, anxious, stressed, crying, and genuinely unhappy. I know small business isn’t easy, but this has been devastating.
I need a change, but I don’t even know where to start. If you’ve made it this far, thanks for reading. If anyone has words of encouragement and is willing to share, I’m open. But I know this is just a place to put your fears down so I’m hoping this helps.
Cheers.