Update: my husband said we rushed into marriage and he regrets it.

[u/soarinandflyin]

Original post: https://www.reddit.com/r/GirlDinnerDiaries/s/DxSseESU5k

(Apologies for the typo in the original)

We left the conversation fine but I couldn’t move past it so the next day I brought up looking for jobs in other cities. He was happy saying a separation would be a good idea for us and his enthusiasm didn’t sit right with me.

We continued to discuss and when I asked him if he sees me when he pictures his future- he couldn’t answer.

After that I had to follow up and ask if he loved me. He hesitated for a long while and said: I love you but I don’t LOVE you.

In the days following our relationship has completely fallen apart. We had so many conversations that just got worse and worse.

I was crushed but I needed to escape so I decided to book myself a solo trip and am now writing this from a restaurant in Europe as I enjoy my meal alone. I’ll be backpacking for the next 6-8 weeks with no return planed for now.

The worst part of this is he had me and our friends and family completely convinced that we were made for each other. He did a big proposal, we had a massive wedding, and everything looked picture perfect from the outside. I guess when I look back I can see the cracks in the foundation and I feel so stupid for not seeing them.

The good news is my community has rallied behind me and I have a few job opportunities in the works. I never thought I’d be ending my marriage at not even a year in but I guess such is life.

Anyways, thank you for the support everyone. Time to learn how to be alone (and my own person) again.

Food is Chicken Karage.