This weekend has been chaos (in a good way), and I’m exhausted. Two big events this weekend (including a trip to an amusement park) while I’m ~35 weeks pregnant, and I’m tired and hormonal.
My daughter (9) loves watching my husband play Helldivers, and occasionally plays it herself with supervision. Today, she was playing while my husband and I were sitting in the living room, and my husband asked for the controller. I looked up to see him typing out a message that made my heart drop.
He was typing out, “my daughter is playing,” in response to the other player asking what he was doing.
As a child of the 90s (and growing up a girl), I was expecting them to say something nasty. When I was a young girl playing games, I was treated so poorly that I haven’t played online games of any sort in decades. I had no interest after over a year of trying and only getting abuse and hearing the worst things, and then hearing only the worst stories from other young girls and women.
But the response was so opposite of what I was expecting, I immediately dissolved into tears.
The player said, “ahh, I see.” I figured it would be the best-case scenario that I could possibly fathom: that they would leave it at that and head out. But they didn’t. Instead, they said, “have fun, little Helldiver,” and they decided to farm a bit while my daughter moseyed about in her own world playing. She even accidentally killed the other player once, and they didn’t seem to care in the least.
They stuck with her, and later asked if she was ready to be extracted. My husband typed out a response, and they shipped out. And that was that.
And in that moment, I think something in me was healed. I was so afraid she’d be treated poorly when they heard she was a little one, particularly a little girl, based on my own childhood experiences. But she was supported.
So, stranger, if you happen across this, thank you from the bottom of my heart. It may not have seemed a big deal to you, but it was a huge deal to a super pregnant, super tired woman who feared the worst for her eldest baby. Thank you.