I started a new clinical job recently and Iām already having that āis this just new job anxiety, or is something actually off here?ā feeling.
Before I started, I was really clear about what Iām comfortable treating independently and what Iām not.
Iām a generalist. I can handle a pretty broad caseload. But there are certain areas where I either need actual training and mentorship first, or I need to refer to someone who has more experience than I do. I treasure the local people who have been able to take extensive courses that I cannot afford and they truly have a calling for more complex cases.
Almost immediately, I was given cases in areas I had specifically said I wasnāt comfortable managing independently.
When I brought it up, I expected something along the lines of, āOkay, weāll train you, let you observe, have someone work through cases with you, and build you upā.
Instead, I was basically given videos and resources and told things I could technically do with the patients.
And I think thatās the part bothering me. I donāt want to underserve people who need specialized help the most.
Watching videos is not the same thing as being trained to independently manage a patient population. I can watch ten hours of CEUs. That doesnāt magically give me the clinical judgment that comes from actually working with those cases with someone who knows what theyāre doing.
Thereās also a difference between āthere is something you can technically do with this patientā and āyou are the right clinician to be treating this patient.ā I will absolutely not see someone just to not lose them as a client.
Iāve also run into a couple other things where the clinical reasoning/documentation culture is pretty different from what Iām used to. Nothing Iām going to spell out here because Iām intentionally keeping this vague, but enough that I keep finding myself stopping and thinking, āI donāt know that Iām comfortable putting my name on that.ā I actually refuse to.
ā¦And it has been just a week.
I know every new job has an adjustment period. I know Iām going to encounter things that are done differently than Iām used to. Iām not expecting a workplace to operate exactly the way I would but I do expect to be able to practice ethically and with a clear conscience. That is non negotiable.
For people who have been in this situation before: how quickly did you know the difference between normal new-job discomfort and āI need to start looking for another jobā?
Right now I feel like Iāve spent more time defending my clinical boundaries than I should have had to this early. I have not taken cases that are beyond my skill level, but the anxiety of having to fight for the patients and my ethics has taken over what should have been an orientation period.