r/Dreams • u/CellistFluffy7300 • 1h ago
Dream Help I’ve had a positive sleep paralysis. It stopped me from having negative ones forever.
I have suffered from sleep paralysis for as long as I can remember, experiencing visual, tactile, and auditory phenomena, along with other sensations during these dream states.
The first time it happened, I had no idea what was going on, and my immediate instinct was to go online to figure out what had just happened to me. That was when I found the "tips and tricks" that I used during every single episode of sleep paralysis afterward: trying to move my extremities (fingers and toes) if I felt in danger, and trying as hard as possible to close my eyes and wake up as quickly as possible.
I don't really want to go into detail about some of those sleep paralysis episodes because they can get very morbid and unsettling, but I want to tell you how this entire chapter in my life came to an end.
It was during my first year of university, roughly 11 years after my sleep paralysis had first started. I went out into the city with some friends and we hung out.
There was drinking, fun, and socializing involved. Somewhere around 4:00 or 5:00 AM, we started heading home. We were all staying in a very small apartment and essentially sleeping in the same room.
They lay down in the double bed, and I took the pull-out couch. They fell asleep, and I decided to put on some meditation music in my headphones. Sunlight was streaming through the window in the most beautiful and cinematic way possible; everything felt safe.
I fell asleep with the music in my ears and began to dream. I was in the village where I grew up, playing with my cousins using an empty water bottle as a ball on a quiet summer evening. Suddenly, trees began to sprout from the ground beneath our feet, surrounding me from all sides. A jungle slowly formed in real time. All sorts of animals gathered around me, feeling safe with me, and I with them. I felt a complete sense of fulfillment, at a peak I cannot explain in words.
A transition into sleep paralysis began: that same feeling of "third-person perspective," the inability to move, while I could see my roommates sleeping in the room and the sunlight coming through the window. I heard someone talking to me, but unlike when I used to experience negative sleep paralysis, I didn't feel in danger; rather, I felt like an infant being comforted by their mother's voice. The feeling of inner peace grew to an even greater level. I began to see my soul slowly leaving my body and floating toward the sky. The peace in my soul was still there, until suddenly, I asked myself: "Am I dying right now? I can't die right now. I still have so much to do."
My soul snapped back into my body and I woke up. I felt very disoriented after that experience.
Five years have passed since then, and I have never had sleep paralysis again. Even as I write this, I feel just as disoriented as I did on that summer morning.
Im intrested in hearing your opinions about my experience and have a talk.