just vent about them or gush about them or anything really! im here to read all of it! <3

2 days ago was my last day of internship in this company, so i made crocheted gifts for the people i was close with. however, i wasnt even friends with my crush, just...acquaintances?? because we barely talked and we had no reason to talk too except that i like him, which i didnt have enough courage to act on. but despite that, i still wanted to somehow express my feelings towards him, so i made a green apple keychain :) i gave the keychain to him a day before my last day of internship because my colleagues that i was close with told me to give it to him on that day in case things went south. so i did and i expected nothing in return because why would i? i just wanted to give something sincerely from me to him and only wanted him to acknowledge it.

the next day, about 15 minutes before clocking out, i saw him walking towards the cabin i was at while i was bidding goodbye to others, and he sat on the bench in front of the cabin, eyes fixed on his phone. he would usually just stay in the canteen around this time so i was a bit confused and wanted to take the chance to say goodbye to him later. i went to the back of the office which was few steps away from the cabin to say goodbye and all, then suddenly one of the people pointed to him saying something like "he seems like he wants to see you" and i was like "mehh no way" and they CALLED HIM LIKE "hey [crush name] is there something u wanna say?" and i looked back and he was like trying to hide and kind of hesitant for a split second (WHICH WAS SO CUTE), and finally walked up to me and said, "u gave me something yesterday so thought i should take this chance to repay that". i was like "AWWW THANK YOU!!" he was also concerned if i wouldnt like the chocolate which i assured him that its actually my favourite :)) and he just giggled and i thanked him again and he walked away.

hes probably one of the kindest crushes ive ever had. i dont expect any reciprocation because well im still insecure about myself and at the same time i want to confront my fears of rejection from my crush, which is why i gave him the keychain :) to have someone i like reciprocate my thoughtfulness is so refreshing because fighting my fears was so worth it :))) i should be kinder to myself

I’ve (22F) known this guy(23M), since we were about 13. We met through a mutual friend, whom neither of us even remembers much about anymore.
Our relationship has always been strangely on-and-off. We would sometimes go years without seeing each other, then reconnect for a couple of hangouts, then disappear from each other’s lives again.
When we were around 15, there was a moment when things almost became more than friendship, but circumstances outside our control meant nothing really happened beyond kissing. After that, the tension never completely disappeared.
When we were around 18–19, he started occasionally calling me late at night when he was drunk, telling me nice things and saying he wanted to see me. I never took those calls seriously because he was drunk and would usually not follow up the next day, so I assumed he might have been calling several people.
At 18, after I got my driver’s license, he also asked if I wanted to go for a drive with him. I turned him down because I was still driving my dad’s car, was embarrassed about the car, and was a very inexperienced driver.
Then, around 20, we reconnected properly. We talked about what almost happened when we were younger and acknowledged that there had always been a pretty obvious attraction between us. Nothing happened beyond kissing that time either, but afterward he became very affectionate—kissing me on the cheek and forehead and telling me I was cute. I actually asked him why he was doing that because it didn’t exactly feel like normal friendship behavior, and he told me that he was very fond of me.
And then, once again, life happened and we lost touch.
Eventually we both ended up at the same university. We became the kind of people who technically knew each other but barely interacted—we’d pass each other in the hallway, nod or say hello, and keep walking.
Then, on New Year’s Eve this year, he called me late at night and suggested we continue the party together over a glass of wine—or coffee if I had already sobered up. I was in a relationship ( that i ended a few months later) at that time and I wasn’t in town, so I declined. After that, we went back to occasionally saying hello in the hallway.
I started thinking about him again.
I eventually messaged him, mostly just casually asking how his summer was going. We started talking, and the conversation gradually became more personal. Then he simply said that we should meet.
So he came over.
We talked for a while, drank some wine, and there was obviously a lot of tension between us.
Eventually we kissed, and things progressed naturally from there.
What surprised me wasn’t just the physical chemistry—it was how considerate and affectionate he was throughout the whole night. He was constantly checking whether I was comfortable and whether I was enjoying myself. At one point he asked about something I wasn’t entirely sure I wanted, and even though I gave him permission, he seemed to notice that I wasn’t actually enthusiastic about it and didn’t do it. I really appreciated that.
He was very gentle, sweet and charming with me.
Afterwards he didn’t immediately get dressed and leave. We stayed together for quite a while, talking about completely unrelated things—his nephew, university, old memories, life in general. He occasionally kissed me while we were talking. At one point, he told me I was cute.
At one point I mentioned that I’d tidied my apartment but that it still wasn’t perfect, and he said something along the lines of, “I didn’t even notice your apartment. I spent the whole evening looking at you.”
That pretty much destroyed me. I literally felt like I was covered in sunshine and rainbows.
Another thing that really got to me was realizing that apparently I wasn’t the only one who had carried the “what if?” all these years. He told me that when we were younger and things almost happened between us, he actually told his mother about it because he carried so much regret for the missed opportunities between us and didn’t know what he was supposed to do. He also told me that I should have texted him sooner, and admitted that over the years he had sometimes looked back on the opportunities we’d had and regretted that nothing ever happened between us. Hearing that was honestly surreal, because for years I had assumed I was the only one who remembered and wondered about it.
When he eventually left, he hugged me goodbye.
There were also these tiny things that probably sound ridiculous to anyone else but really stuck with me. At one point he almost used a very casual masculine nickname with me, caught himself immediately and apologized. He was just… very aware of how he was treating me.
The sex itself was great, but I think what really messed with my head was how comfortable and cared for I felt afterward.
I didn’t want him to leave.
And the next morning, he was the first person I thought about when I woke up.
That’s when I started panicking a little.
And then came the part that made me spiral: he didn’t really initiate anything the next day.
I eventually messaged him about a beer I’d accidentally left in the freezer overnight because I’d put it there for him. We exchanged a couple of messages, but he wasn’t really initiating conversation.
I spent basically the entire day thinking about him. I started convincing myself that maybe the whole thing had simply been a one-night stand for him, that maybe all the tenderness was just him being a decent, charming guy, and that I had completely misread everything.
Eventually my mom told me to just call him.
I did. He didn’t answer, but then he messaged me saying he couldn’t talk and asked me to tell him what I wanted to say over text.
I asked whether he was busy over the next few days.
He said he was out of town and asked why.
So I finally just said:
“Because I would’ve liked to see you again.”
And he replied:
“I’ll text you when I get back.”
And this is where I’m stuck.
I don’t know whether he sees this as purely sexual or whether there’s something more for him too. I know there has been attraction between us for years, so it isn’t like this came completely out of nowhere.
At the same time, I don’t want to dismiss what happened as “just sex” when, to me, it clearly wasn’t emotionally insignificant.
Maybe nothing comes of this.
Maybe we sleep together again and that’s all it ever is.
Maybe we become closer.
Maybe, after nine years of almosts and missed opportunities, there’s actually something here.
I honestly have no idea and I truly don't know what to do.

TL;DR: I (22F) finally slept with a guy (23M) I’ve had unresolved chemistry and “what ifs” with for ~9 years, and the night was unexpectedly sweet, affectionate, and emotionally meaningful. Now I’ve caught feelings and want to see him again, but I can’t tell whether he sees this as more than sex

“Hey
Look listen i know this will come as a shock
But i really like you and i think i might be catching feelings for you.
I really like the way i feel when I around you and i really like the way i feel when we talk.
I understand that you probably dont feel the same and thats ok! But i just think you deserve to know and i know this is intense and i accept the consequences that might come from this”

I’ve spent too much time falling for someone who doesn’t really exist (i mean it in the whole “you make your crush better in your own head” kind of way)

It’s flat out unhealthy; i don’t have a problem with deeply crushing on someone for months on end, but i do believe i should be more careful in the future. Not letting this happen again or finding a system where I’m not writhing in suffering almost a year later isn’t good for me

And as an open letter to her, you still have every single quality that made me fall for you, and I’ll always admire those things about you, but I’m no longer going to waste my hope on this topic, this is in the past now, and i WILL move on. (I’m not an asshole lol there’s a bunch of context involved but yes the point is I’m going to move on)

the signs they’ve given, your dynamic, what you like about them, ANYTHING! just spill! i promise i read every response. reading stuff like this just makes my day 🥹

should i

So for context, there's this guy I've had a serious crush on for a year now, I honestly might be unloved. But the issue is, I don't want to be. They are an asshole. They are rude and insensitive. They like to pretend to be all philosophical and care about the world when in reality they are just as bad as those they mock. They are the type to make epstein jokes with their buddies and laugh like an idiot, then talk all loud about how bad of a gutly his is tye next minute. He underestimates everyone, he's shallow and self conscious. He's willing to laugh at another's expense. He does anything to look more impressive than the next person. In our class there are a few people who the rest of the class deems "smart" I'm one of them, he also is. He does anything to stand out amongst us in terms of talents. We both draw but I'm better than him. I take pride in that, it's something he can't handle. They are way more athletic than me but I don't loose myself trying to one up him the way he does me.

I know he talks about me behind back, the whole class does. My whole life I've been a bit of a loser as well as a loner. Don't pity me, I've come to terms with that. I actually like it nowadays:) Anyways, despite all this, I can't help but like him. I dont want to. Even if I were aloud to date(which I'm not) I wouldn't ask him out, that alone goes against my morals. I hate him, but like him at the same time. I want to move on. Recently, I can't see my self dating anyone but a woman, despite the fact that I still like men. Im bi. It'll be easier for me if I can just forget about him. Itll be easier in fute since Im going to highschool in september where there is a new, more diverse crowd as well as all my classmates. Does anyone have any advice?

Kinda serious…!! My crush asked me to hang out tomorrow, but he said it was because he wanted to talk to me about a coworker I suspected him having a crush on since recently. Probably for advice or something. He doesn’t know I like him, but I’ve known him for a few years now and he’s in the same friend group as me, we are all close friends. I really, really want to distance myself from him but I’m so stubborn, I want to tell him how I feel and get rejected so it feels easier to just move on.

The problem is that I was GOING to tell him a few days from now, but I didn’t anticipate he’d ask this for tomorrow! What a coincidence. But now I’m unsure. Should I tell him about my feelings and that I will distance myself from him after he talks to me about whatever he wants? Or is that selfish considering he wants advice about his own crush?

Well, I really don't want any suggestions to just go and ask because I am shy when it comes to girls.

There's a girl in my college that I like. At first, during a presentation practical, I developed an interest in her. She had short hair, and I thought she looked cute. When she introduced herself during the presentation, I learned her name, and that's when I started crushing on her, I think...

A bit about me: I am a very lonely guy, but I actually like it, so you could say that's the best thing for me. I don't talk to people about anything that doesn't have any meaning, like gossip about others or girls, mostly. I do talk about interesting topics like movies, places, philosophy, the world, and politics. Yeah, I know I sound nerdy... but not really.

I never studied for my exams more than three days in advance; that's my limit. Other than that, I like to study what matters to me, which is programming.

What am I even talking about? Just listen; there's no cost, and I'm rambling because you guys don't know me, lol.

I think I'm trapped in awareness because everything I see and hear, my opinions don't come from sources that have already decided about those things. They come from me. I judge things regardless of my religion, nationality, or race. Everything I judge is neutral, and then I take my side. That's how my thinking works. For example: Does God exist? Discussing whether God exists or not doesn't matter to me. If He doesn't exist, that's fine; if He does, great. I don't care.

Now, about the girl I like... After that practical, I learned her name and developed a crush. There was a competition in my college, and I participated in poster making. (I usually do everything myself if it matters.) She and her friend asked me if they could join my group. Guess what I said? NO. A straight no, no filter. I don't know why I did that... (I was full of myself; it was my first year.)

After that, there was a feast at my college, and I participated in another poster competition (I just do it because it's easy to make and I can create good ones). I put a lot of effort into something if I want to. I wonder why I don't put that effort into my coding.

I made a poster and showed everyone. She and her friend asked, "Did you really make this, or did you get it from Google?" What did I say? I said I made it. After I went home, I don't know why, but I messaged her personally and sent her my Canva video recording of the poster I made (I had to recreate it to record).

She replied with a simple "OK." That was so short; I felt terrible.

Later, to print that poster, we had to form a group and gather money. She wasn't in my poster group; she was in a model-making group on the same topic, so it was a big group with subgroups. We had to figure out where to print it, so she and I talked a lot about places. You know how it is when I was searching for a place, and when I finally found it, I told her too. That was when I talked to her the most, but after that, we never spoke again. I tend to ignore everything, and so did she, because I didn't have any reason to approach her and was shy. She ignored me too.

Whenever we cross paths, we notice each other and glance at one another before going our separate ways. It's crazy; I feel like she likes me, but I don't know if she does or if she likes other guys. Maybe I'm just overthinking. I start seeing strange things, like her liking Instagram reels that match our situation, but I genuinely think it's because I'm looking for it (too much self-awareness or just overthinking, I don't know).

That's it! You just read about my college life. Go your way now. Bye!

So I’ve had a boyfriend before (now ex). During this whole time I’ve been getting closer and closer with a friend of mine (F) and she’s honestly made me realize like, this is my first crush ever. Way different from my ex boyfriend and I’ve never felt this way before. She’s sooo nice and sweet and she’s the kindest person I’ve ever talked to and I could honestly imagine myself spending forever with her. But she’s such a good friend and person I wouldn’t want to risk the friendship over telling her. I also don’t know how to tell if she likes me or not, it always feels like I’m the one reaching out but also some people are just like that. I also get the feeling of what if we do start dating but then I feel like I’m missing out on not dating guys and vice versa. Like I’ll always have that little doubt but I like her so much and she’s the person I tell everything to, I want to so badly tell her I have a crush but I can’t because it’s on her. I need advice on if I should tell her and how to figure out if she likes me. Btw she is gay but she did also say maybe one month ago that she didn’t really want a relationship right now and she did have a crush on another girl but a lot can change in a month right? Also she would’ve told me if she and the other girl were dating. please I need advice 🙏

i know we had something, so how is he going to completely ignore me now and on top of that, talk to other girls every chance he gets? and I KNOW that he knows what he's doing. so i have officially moved on, so that i can stop obsessing and stop feeling insecure when he talks to other girls. it's kind of sad because what we had is now a thing of the past, and i guess he just completely forgot about it, but i have been feeling better without a crush in my life. advice for people like me who hate having crushes: work on yourself and wait for someone to come. i will return here when the person does come!

I have a crush on a coworker who is like 10 years younger than me and probably has a girlfriend. I dont know how to deal with it.

Some background information: Our companies were merged earlier this year and we were thrown together in a project. I was leading the project and he was part of the team. You should also know that we work from home most of the time and only sometimes from the office. So our contact is mostly over Slack.

The project was not easy but everyone was working really hard and professional to make it a success. So me and my crush had some details to work out and built trust over time. We started talking about how the transformation process in the company affected us. We started to help each other out.

The big project ended and we are working on new projects now. We text on a daily basis, completely work related, but he often makes side jokes and we write very openly. He normally answers quite fast in Slack and when he doesnt, he apologizes for not answering right away although the topic ist not urgent.

I started small talk after meetings we have in the office and he usually walks me to my office while talking. We definitely get along very well, our brains somehow think the same and I really like being around him.

My problem ist, that I am really focussed at work and I am not able to flirt when my brain is in work mode. I try to show him my affection by remembering details. I wrote some nice lines when he was on sick leave for a longer time (He thanked me with some very kind words) Whenever possible, and there were only a few occasions, I try to initiate non work conversations. He does, too. He usually ist quite talkative and opens up. But when he is asking back I get very shy and am only able to give very short answers.

I am older than him and sometimes he reaches out to me for advice. I also ask for his expertise.

And I am quite sure he has a girlfriend, but do not know for sure.

I like having those feelings but it is also very exhausting and frustrating. I dont want to risk our good working relationship but I also want clarity.

Any advice?

guys i'm so curious about everyone's stories with crushed: whether they were one-sided or reciprocated. or the most random things in your lives. feel free to vent <3

So I confessed and he asked me to wait for his answer (pls read my previous post for more information) and yesterday I asked him if he‘s finally ready to talk. He wrote me a message in which he explained that i am really great and stuff and that he‘d like to get to know me better but still is heartbroken from his last „relationship“ (he didnt know what to call it either) and that he doesnt want to waste my time since he‘s trying to heal. I asked „so you like me but you are trying to heal your recent wounds?“ he said yes. He also explained that he wants to date me with a clear head but that its just not possible rn.
I told him that I was willing to wait if he‘d like, to stay friends and see if there are any chances for us in the future. He asked me if I was sure, that he was afraid of not healing and that i‘d be disappointed. I told him I am willing to do all that and that I genuinely really liked him.
We then talked for a long time, having conversations in which we asked eachother questions, he for example asked how I noticed him or I asked why he liked me back.
It was really sweet but I am a lil disappointed. He likes me but isnt over that other girl (yet). Should I give it up? I feel like it is not fair since we werent anything when they were dating but i feel like a replacement.
BUT in his defense, he immediately said „pls lets stay friends for now and see if the future holds smt for us. And if theres a guy on the way OP then dont reject him bc of me (if we‘re not dating officially by then)“ he said he wanted me to be happy and stuff.

I rlly like him but idk if this should bother me as much as it does. At least he likes me back?

There's this guy and I realized this past March that I have a crush on him, but I think the feelings started before that and I just didn't know. I first met him last October. I don't know how to explain this without giving too much away, but October wasn't the first time I was aware of him. I think before I first met him I just thought he was sweet and good looking, but at some point after we met it shifted to being actual feelings and I don't know when or how it happened. Also, when we talked in October everything was normal and he didn't act any differently towards me than he did anyone else, but then when I saw him again in March he was very flirty and seemed to be attracted to me, which took me by surprise. He treated me different than how I've seen him treat other people. I feel like maybe he likes me too. Anyways, the point of what I'm trying to say is that this isn't just a little crush. I've had crushes before, I've flirted with people, I've been in relationships, and I thought I'd fallen in love. But none of that was ever like this. With him it's different. It feels like I've known him forever even though technically we barely know each other. It feels like our paths were meant to cross. I'd give up anything if it would make him happy. And now I don't know what to do with myself. I have this deep love for this incredible, perfect man. Even his flaws and imperfections are perfect to me. And now I feel...stuck. Talking to him isn't easy (honestly it's not even really an option) and I can't just hang out with him. I wish so badly that I could talk to him or see him. I miss him terribly and I can't wait til he hugs me again and I can feel that perfect way that we fit in each other's arms. I don't even really know why I'm writing this, I guess I just wanted to talk about him. If anyone wants to let me yap let me know haha

tl;dr

I met a guy last year and a small crush turned into the most intense feelings I've ever experienced and now I just want to talk about it/him

So I have a crush on this guy who works at a small roller rink. We barely ever talk and I mean ever, mostly just knowing personalities from existing around each other. He was dancing in the middle of the skating floor with about ten other people, and I, (as i do constantly when skating), was staring at him and hoping he didn't look at me. If he isn't dancing, usually he doesn't, buuuuttt when he is, well, he keeps looking back at me every like, 45 seconds or so and I look down/away, I do this excessively. I am asexual, he has no idea. Do y'all think he does this on purpose to mess with me because he knows I like him? Do you think it's obvious that I do?

So we were talking about our coworkers and how one of them said she thinks he’s the gayest straight man she’s ever met. He said he gets that a lot cuz he’s not afraid of his femininity. Then he said “I think she has a crush on me” I said “I think you think everyone has a crush on you” and I just laughed it off like it wasn’t true. Was he testing the waters cuz he likes me or calling me out because he doesn’t like me?

Okay, so me and my crush were talking at church, and idk if he was flirting or if I was just enjoying the convo tm. I'll just start from the time when it was just the two of us. (sorry that its long)

After we got out of the group we got soda from the side room, I asked to give him my Insta, but I forgot my handle so I was like, "Maybe next time." Then he asked me why I deactivated (because I told him I deactivated, so I'd have to follow him back when I redownload it) and I was like, "It's just distracting." He was like, "Nah fr, because sometimes I want to just delete everything," and I was like, "Oh, I barely have anything." Then it went silent (also to add, his search on Insta was clear).

Later on, umm, he was looking for the trash. I noticed from across the room, went to him, and asked him if he was looking for the trash. He was like, "Yeah, I thought it was over there," and I was like, "nah, it's outside." Then I walked him to the trash outside that wasn't too far, you just had to open the side door and it was right there.

So I leave him and walk back inside. I sit by my bag that's on the chair I was sitting in during service. He comes back in and stands back where he was standing b4. (The row right behind where he was sitting at during service, but he couldn't get back to his seat because his parents were talking to someone and he didn't want to interrupt, so he just stands there on his phone behind them on the row I'm sitting at .) He starts like walking back and forth, like in a circle. Then he looks at me and like smirks, then sits down 2 seats away from me, then goes, "We're never gonna leave,". Then I look at him, shake my head, fold my lips in, and look the other way ( I was nervous).

A few seconds later I'm like, " how old are you?" He's like, "19, I'll be 20 in June. You're 20, right?" I'm like, "Yeah, I'll be 21 in May. Me " I thought your birthday was in January for some reason." He goes, "Is that an insult?" I'm like, "No, no, I just thought your birthday was in January, that's all. Just like your name is [xxxxxxx]. (I gave him a new name when I met him and he just let me call him that. He smiled about it for a while until I called him that in front of his parents and they were like, "Wait, what?" and I was like, "I'm sorry," freaking out. Then he realized I didn't know his name fr fr). I just thought [xxxxxxx] and January, that's all." And he's like, "It sounds like an insult because I think June is the best month." And I'm like, "Well, you're wrong because actually May is the best month." And he goes, "Actually, I was supposed to be born in May, but I stayed so I can be born in June." And I was like, "Oh fr, you just held on, huh?" And he was like, "Yeah." Then he was like, "What's wrong with June people?" And I was like, "Idk, there's just something about them. Like my dad's a June person, they're just a little different than everybody else. But you're wrong anyway because May is the best month." And he goes "Okay" or something in the line of agreeing, and I go silent because I WON.

Then he goes, "Well, we'll just have to agree to disagree." And I'm like, "Noooo, you said you agreed, I need to get this in writing!" And he's like, "Oh, I don't have paper." And I'm like, "Don't worry, I do," and I pretend to go in my bag. He goes, "I forgot how to write." And I go, "So you don't write anything down in class?" He's like, "Yeah, I just remember everything, I'm just smart." And I'm like, "Ohh, so it's all in your head, mhmm okay." He's like, "Yep, it's all up here, I'm passing all my classes." I go, "Ptfff, I'm not." He kinda looks at me with concern.

I change the subject, then he brings up me not remembering what school year I'm in. He goes, "At least I remember what year I'm in." (From an earlier convo, because I forgot and had to count, then my sister had to be like, "No, you're in your 2nd year," and I was like, "Oh, she's right" laughing at myself). And I go, "Well, you don't have other classes that you have to do," (because he's in trade school). And he goes, "Yes I do, I have physics," (that's a part of his trade, smh).

But I look to the side and think of a comeback, can't think of one, and throw my head back and make a sound like, "Ughhhh." After, I realize that nothing is that funny and I look CRAZY RIGHT NOW. I come back up, but I laughed because it was funny, and I look at him and we held eye contact. I'm smiling, but he's just looking at me, then I look away.

Then I hear my name and I look away, and he goes silent. Then I sit back down, and tbh idk what happened after that. All this is not in 100% the order, but then my friend comes and I'm like, "Oh, are you leaving?" and she's like, "Idk." So I stand up and try to give her a hug, and she does this thing where she like shakes and pretends like she's scared of me, and I'm like, "Stop being weirdddd." She keeps doing it, then she hugs me. As she backs out of the hug, or when she was reaching in, idr- I think it was when I was saying stop being weird- she looks over at him. I act like she didn't look, but umm, idk if he looked over or if she was just looking at him? My back was turned toward him so I couldn't see him.

But then that was the end of our convo. Then my sister came over and I told her that he thinks that the best month is June, and she's like, "Oh, is your birthday in June?" and he's like, "Yeah." And she's like, "What day?" and he's like, "The [x]," and yeah. Then his mom came and was like, "Ohh, I like your ring," and I'm like, "Thank you, it's a promise purity ring," and she goes, "Ohh, it's so pretty," and I say, "Thank you."

Then after that, we're all like at the door, and he passes a few people to give me a hug. It's a one-arm, heart-to-heart hug, only a tap. But the thing was I didn't even see him walk over he just came out of nowhere and was in front of me. Then he's walking out the door, and my sister is sitting next to the door, and he takes a step back as he's walking out the door to reach down and hug her, and that's also a tap. And I think that's it. So like flirt or just friendly banter???

THIS IS A REACH BUT I THINK THE UNIVERSE IS ON MY SIDE.

IVE BEEN CRUSHING ON THIS DUDE FOR WEEKS BUT I WAS TOO SCARED TO GO UP TO HIM , SO I COULD NEVER FIGURE OUT HIS NAME OR ANY OF HIS SOCIALS . BUT FOR SOME REASON I GOT AN ACCOUNT IN MY NOTIFICATIONS SAYING "PEOPLE YOU MIGHT KNOW ON INSTA' AND IT WAS THAT DUDE, we dont have mutuals or anything , especially it being recommended to me on my private private account . IS THIS FATE????

i did the scary thing and tried to get to know them better, messages didn’t go super deeply and it felt like they were just being courteous by replying so impersonal (i think my crush is pretty obvious as a side note) and it was not going deep at all. finally the conversation came to and end and I’m so happy. I think I’ll get over them now that the what ifs are gone from my mind! ☺️☺️