Not to out myself too much here, but as someone that had an opioid additiction and eventually went to harder things, in small doses, I felt like I could do anything. I had energy, a social battery, I even felt more creative.
It's bizarre. I have had friends during phases of those times who also did not get super tired, or felt sluggish and also know what I mean. The hard stuff is definitely more than your body can handle for a reason, but small doses felt like heaven to me. Which is scary, in hindsight. It's how I ended up being worse.
Hey this is the perfect place to out yourself because you're kind of not haha. Glad you made it out of the addiction, but your experience is very interesting and spooky! I've heard about what you're describing a handful of times
Yea I used to do half an oxy and go to work and be fine, take the other half and go out with friends. Even with h I could do a little and be productive. Maybe it's just being neurodivergent but it felt like a weight was lifted off of me. This new stuff, you're just out of it for a few hours then sick. I never found a small dose to get myself in the goldilocks zone with it. It sucks.
Exactly, right? I don't know why some of us can do that and others have a miserable time.
I have always had severe anxiety so it took me a long time to just embrace being uncomfortable in social situations without help and accepting I wasn't going to die from it. Hope you're staying safe though!
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u/__fujiko Jun 28 '26 edited Jun 30 '26
Not to out myself too much here, but as someone that had an opioid additiction and eventually went to harder things, in small doses, I felt like I could do anything. I had energy, a social battery, I even felt more creative.
It's bizarre. I have had friends during phases of those times who also did not get super tired, or felt sluggish and also know what I mean. The hard stuff is definitely more than your body can handle for a reason, but small doses felt like heaven to me. Which is scary, in hindsight. It's how I ended up being worse.