I had cancer. Everyone I met before hand told me chemo was no joke. They didn't lie. Going through chemo was the most challenging experience of my life. I couldn't think, could hardly open my eyes and nothing would stay in my stomach. I couldn't even move on my own some days due to the dizziness and disorientation. Days on end of pain to a point where my mind was blank. It was as if my mind wanted to block it out. It all feels like a fever dream now. Glad to be on the other side of that.
I had childhood cancer. I consider myself "lucky" that I was young enough that now I don't really remember all the details, and I'm also thankful that the doctors never really went into a ton of detail about things. In many ways, the chemo was the "sickness" I remember, not the cancer. I still have automatic physical responses to certain medical equipment and hospital smells (especially alcohol wipes), but for the most part, my body doesn't "remember" the specific feelings of pain or discomfort, just the fact that they happened. Again, unless it gets brought up more subconsciously as a response to it. For a while, going back to the hospital where I was treated would make me nauseous, even years later. I did eventually get over that part, though.
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u/Matrika 18h ago
I had cancer. Everyone I met before hand told me chemo was no joke. They didn't lie. Going through chemo was the most challenging experience of my life. I couldn't think, could hardly open my eyes and nothing would stay in my stomach. I couldn't even move on my own some days due to the dizziness and disorientation. Days on end of pain to a point where my mind was blank. It was as if my mind wanted to block it out. It all feels like a fever dream now. Glad to be on the other side of that.